Perspective

To put something into perspective... and as much as I try not to be sappy. I'm just in that type of mood =D.

I wanted to ask some questions that may seem a little disheartening. Although I am highly postive and cheer for Darleen's recovery, I sometimes find myself reflective and pondering what is she thinking, why wasn't it me, could it have been better, could it have been worse, what could have happened if..., etc, etc? Let me ask you these questions that I think about to myself...

If this is in your past or present...
What were you doing when you were 17?
What were you doing when you were 18?
What were you thinking about when you were at school?
What were you doing in the summer?
What were you thinking about when you were at graduation?
What were you feeling like when you went to the parties after graduation?

Sometimes these things break my heart thinking back and knowing what I, myself, was doing when I was 17 & 18, what I was doing when I was in high school, what I was doing when I graduated, what I was doing at those after graduation parties, what I was doing for spring break, summer, or at lunch time, what I was doing in college. I know that I wasn't recovering from severe head trauma, and I now don't take any of these things for granted.

I say this because I know that her friends and even people who were not her friends in school have come to me on myspace, on facebook, through email, even through text to say that they care for her and that they keep her in their prayers. It means so much to me, my family, and Darleen and I hope that everyone is also not taking these things for granted. I don't want people to think that I want them to feel bad or sad because we know that she will be fine, I just want them to be aware that we think of these things in hindsight, but we got to keep going and not let any of these things hold us back. Don't take anything you do for granted. Live with no regrets.

-Malina